Lots and lots of unknowns right now. I guess that is the epitome of living, but I knew a time when there were lots of knowns. The majority of the life I have lived thus far is still made up of being a child/teenager and having limited choices and planned out decisions. When I was growing up I knew there was summer vacation, then school, then break, school, then summer vacation again. I knew that I would graduate, and I would go to Columbia, and all these amazing things would happen and my life would start.
I'm well into "my life has started" and I just don't really know what I am doing with myself. I look online for jobs for me but everything looks so not for me. I know what I want, and I know what I don't want, and I just don't know how to get it. So I resign myself to "letting it find me" but that is not a comfortable space.
Okay. I'm going to open Beyond Intellect now. Here is what I opened to:
Page 132, An Equal Partnership
I actually started reading on the next page where it said, "Yes to life, yes to love, yes to adventure. Then the next thing I know, the person whose mouth you jumped out of is crouched in a mangled mess under the covers whimpering and calling my name..."
An Equal Partnership is about Yes and No and boundaries. I actually think I am really good at saying Yes and No. And, if I'm unsure, I usually go for it anyway and say Yes, and then if I don't like it then I say No. I don't have a problem with being loyal to myself.
I think we live in a world where most people have a problem being loyal to themselves. So, a person works long hours at a job and misses their children's school activity day. Or a person turns a blind eye and works for an unethical company. Or a person finds an area of their heart where they can lock away their dreams one by one, with either no intention to visit those dreams again, or with a lie that they will try again... one day.
Well said Sara. I agree that you seem to have an excellent handle on saying yes and no. I have watched you do both beautifully many times. What I have learned from you is that, even with clarity and courage, life done well is a series of challenges and unknowns. You do take life on and I admire how you consistently do it. xoxo
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