Well, 9 months later and what do I have to show? I think visibly I have a few more lines on my face, and a few more grey hairs. But, all in all, I am happy and healthy.
I emailed my best friend from high school today, and it was funny to realise how much of a Gemini I really am. Sometimes I like to think that I am less Gemini. But, nope, I´m all mercurial. That is me!
It has been difficult to write lately, because so much change has been going on. All self induced, but nonetheless heart-wrenching and painful. In some ways I think that if pain just happens to you, you can at least find comfort in it being totally random and out of your control. When you feel pain because of choices that you have to make... then the responsibility lies entirely with you.
You go through the pain of the experience of the choice you have made, and all that you can think is ‘you chose this' (so stop feeling sad).
But just because you make the choice, doesn´t make it less painful or less sad. And, maybe your choice was less painful than the choice of continuing on in a way that was not working.
Amen.
Let´s see what Beyond Intellect has for me today... I opened the book to page 18, and my eyes went to "A Path With Heart".
After reading a few pages, what I am gleaning from the information within, is that, I need to remind myself that I have my permission to live my life based on what works for me. And that I am not bad, or wrong for choosing what no longer worked for me.
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